Where is my LID already???

Today is a very sad day for me.  No, nothing in particular happened, but that is the point.  Nothing is happening.  My husband and I were so occupied with our son who turned 6 yesterday that I didn’t have too much time to think.  But now I am just sad.  If I were to guess we should be about 36 days into our wait for our LOA, about half way given the averages.  But the part that really bothers me is that I don’t know this for sure since we still do not have a log in date.  Our agency has assured me that our dossier was received by China, but that it just hasn’t been input into the system yet.  But who really knows.  Maybe it is sitting there on someone’s desk covered by everyone else’s dossier or maybe it is being used to level the leg of a lopsided table.  Who knows?  The agency gave me a 4-6 week timeframe until we receive our date and we are now officially at the 6 week mark since our dossier was sent.  Why is nothing easy in this process?  We waited a long time for our immigration approval (77 days) which is about 30 days more than the current approval times.  Now it looks like we are in for a long wait again.  I love our agency and I love the support we have received, but I am not happy with the wait and see approach this long in the wait.  I was advised to stay off the internet because there will always be someone else who gets something quicker and that will lead to disappointment.  Maybe, but without the internet I would have had no idea what I was doing.  Yes, our agency is good, but they aren’t perfect and by reading the forums I found out how I was supposed to send things in, what is the best way to complete various forms, which couriers to use,  etc.  The internet has kept me one step ahead and because of the experiences of all the other adoptive parents I felt prepared at each step of our paperchase.  Truthfully, without the internet I would be more worried because I wouldn’t know what to expect.  Even now, I can find someone out there who has waited as long or longer that we have and will give me assurances that it will happen.  But I am still sad.  I have a little girl who I long to bring home and make a part of our family.